I
have no idea how to end my final blog post.
I don’t think it’s possible to sum up my entire semester in just a few
paragraphs. I just finished
circumnavigating the globe and seeing things and places that many people never
will get the chance to see.
It
has been a long journey, I have been through a lot, and I have met a ton of
amazing people. It was difficult to say
goodbye to them all and I didn’t get to see a lot of people on the last day
since we were all preoccupied with packing our bags and making sure we didn’t
forget anything. I at least got to say ‘goodbye’
to all of the members of the Officer’s club.
We went out for lunch together with our families before we went our separate
ways. I miss them already, especially my
sbffl (ship best friend for life), Liz K.
After being around her nearly 24/7, it’s weird that she suddenly isn’t
here anymore. She promised to come visit
me this summer, though, so I am sure I will see her soon.
I
am not quite home yet. My mom and I
decided to take a road trip to the Grand Canyon on the way home, so I won’t be
home until tomorrow or the day after. I
am honestly a little afraid to go home and face all of the questions people are
going to ask me… “Was it fun?” “What was
your favorite port?” “What challenged you the most?” I don’t know how to answer any of these
questions. Yes, it was fun at times, but
it was also insane at times, or scary or heartbreaking. When I saw children begging on a train in
India I felt as if my heart was going to tear apart because I could do nothing
to help them. It was always challenging. There is no wa to answer these questions with
a few simple sentences. I know there are
some people who, even now, will say I was simply on a cruise around the world.
On
this voyage, I saw beggars in India and thieves in South Africa, I saw the
Amazon rainforest and the Great Wall of China. I saw cherry blossoms in bloom in Japan and
the Taj Mahal. I have seen proof that
there is pain all over the world, but also beauty. There is poverty and suffering, but also joy
and people who love their lives. I have
seen how different cultures live and I understand how they can be happy even though
they have very little. I have seen different
forms of exploitation around the world, but also hundreds of acts of kindness.
I
have learned how to say ‘thank you’ and ‘hello’ in many different languages and
how important it is to smile. I have
learned how to walk fast and to haggle merchandise to half the price. At the
moment I feel as if I don’t fit in, though I know the feeling will begin to
fade over time. I need time to process
what I have seen. Whether is simply
takes me a few weeks or several months to figure out what all I have seen
means, I don’t know.
On
my journey I have found friends that I know I will keep for the rest of my life
and memories that I will never forget. I
learned a lot from the voyage, though I don’t know how I have changed through
the experience, or even if I have changed at all, I feel like I have gained a
new kind of cultural understanding that I didn’t have before. For years I have thought that I wanted to spend
my life traveling and writing and this journey has reinforced that desire. I don’t know how to explain the things that I
have seen or even what I think of them, but I know I have a lot more exploring to do. Someday I will be able to look back and how
this voyage has changed me and affected my life, but for now I need time to
process.
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